My marriage with Kevin is nothing more than a contractual marriage.
Seven years ago, he was in a car accident because of Zoe and was seriously injured and became a vegetable. When he was most helpless, I chose to marry him and took care of him silently for seven years.
Everyone thought I was doing this to repay a favor, but no one knew that my love for Kevin had been buried deep in my heart for ten years.
This contract was the secret joy in my heart and the proof that I had achieved what I wanted.
I stood in the yard, my eyes piercing through the night, fixed on the window on the second floor that was shining with light. Two blurry figures were entangled tightly, inseparable. Kevin 's appearance and voice have long been deeply imprinted in my heart. Even if I can't see him, I can clearly feel his presence.
" Zoe , please don't leave me again, okay ?" Kevin 's voice was gentle and earnest.
Zoe's voice was weak and feeble, with a hint of tears in it: "But... you're already married."
"You know, Linn has taken care of me for many years. This is what I told her. But my heart will always be yours." Kevin's words were full of determination and helplessness.
The figure on the curtain swayed, Kevin lowered his head, kissed away Zoe's tears, and coaxed her softly. His tone was so gentle that I almost forgot how he frowned at my tears and how he impatiently blamed me: " Linn , I hate crying women the most !"
Because of this sentence, when I was in unbearable pain from ectopic pregnancy, I forced myself not to shed a single tear in front of him.
I lowered my head and stroked the ring on my ring finger. This was the first gift Kevin gave me when I married for five years. I thought it was his response to my love. However, the name and the ring were just his explanation to me.
I pulled the smaller ring off with great effort. The reddish marks on my finger bones seemed to remind me that Kevin had never really belonged to me.
The two people in the window did not speak anymore, but there was an ambiguous sound of lips rubbing against each other. The ring in my hand slipped, rolled into the grass, and disappeared.
At this moment, my wavering heart finally made a decision - to give up Kevin .
I took out my phone again and called Kevin's mother : "It's been seven years, the contract should end."
There was a moment of silence on the other end of the phone, and then Kevin's mother's caring voice came: "Linn, thank you for all these years, and I'm sorry for putting you through so much."
"I was too selfish. I thought... after seven years together, you two would eventually fall in love." Kevin's mother's words were filled with guilt.
I clutched my phone tightly and sobbed quietly. Didn't I think the same way back then?
Unfortunately, my companionship and infatuation are as light as a feather compared to Zoe. She left Kevin when he was at his lowest point, and returned many years later, but he still holds her in his heart. This is the difference between love and not love.
A sigh came from the other end of the phone: " Linn , since you have decided to leave, I will not keep you."
"I remember that you gave up the opportunity to study abroad for Kevin seven years ago. If you still have the same idea now, I can help you." Kevin's mother's words were full of care and understanding.
Because of Kevin, my life has been stagnant for too long, it's time to move on. I choked up and said yes and hung up the phone.
I grasped the door handle, ready to leave this place full of pain, but the door was opened from the inside first.
