8

How could I become like this after ten years with Derek? He was still there, blaming me nonstop, and the grievance and anger in my heart poured out like a flood. I hysterically questioned him: "What I wrote is worthless, my figure is unbearable to look at, since I am such a terrible person, why do you still want to be with me?" I smashed the cup he gave me crazily, cut up the clothes and towels he bought for me, venting my inner anger and unwillingness.

However, he just looked at me indifferently, thinking that my breakdown and venting were just a manifestation of my inability to control my emotions. The deep feeling of powerlessness once again enveloped me and almost swallowed me. In the end, it was Grace who went upstairs to pull me away and shielded me from Derek's accusations. Her last words to Derek were: "Let's not talk about whether I am good or bad, but being friends with me is Luna's own choice, and you are not qualified to judge."